I Entered the Gate of the Sushumna

A Vakh by Lalleshwari

I Entered the Gate of the Sushumna

Introduction by Umakant Kori

Lalleshwari—also known as Lalla Ded or Mother Lalla—was a poet and mystic saint born during the latter part of the fourteenth century in Kashmir, the splendid valley region in northwestern India surrounded by mountains, forests, and lakes. At a young age Lalleshwari met her Guru, Siddha Srikantha, who gave her spiritual initiation and taught her the philosophy of nondual Kashmir Shaivism that had flourished some centuries earlier in the region of Lalla’s birth.

This Shaiva tradition teaches that the same supreme Consciousness that is one’s own Self becomes the universe and all living beings. This Consciousness is known by the name Shiva, and because Shiva is the innermost Self, through the Guru’s grace and a steady effort in pursuing sadhana, a spiritual seeker can become established in the recognition of supreme divinity as their own. This attainment transforms one’s vision, revealing that everything surrounding one is, indeed, the manifestation of Shiva’s divine light. Lalleshwari reached this sublime state. She was so immersed in the experience of Shiva, her adored deity, that she became an avadhuta, rising above body consciousness. It is said that at the end of her life, she took mahasamadhi by dissolving into a flame of light and merging into oneness with Shiva’s universe.

For seven hundred years Lalleshwari has been revered by both Hindus and Muslims in Kashmir for her universal and nonsectarian spirit. This great bhakta, lover of God, drew from Hindu, Sufi, and Sikh teachings. Though born to a traditional Brahmin family, Lalla wrote in the local vernacular and, thus, made accessible to all Kashmiris obscure Shaiva teachings that had previously been given only in Sanskrit. She created a style of four-line poems called vatsun or vakh, which means “speech” in Kashmiri. These verses are considered the earliest literary works of the Kashmiri language.

In her vakh “I Entered the Gate of the Sushumna,” Lalleshwari speaks using the first-person pronoun to indicate that what she is describing is her own experience. In India, this mode of personal address was the provenance of the Bhakti poets, who preferred to convey the intimacy of devotional love. Here, Lalla tells us that the state she has attained is accessible to all who dedicate themselves to constant spiritual practice. The path to this state is found by entering and traversing the sushumna, the central conduit in the subtle body of a human being, through which Kundalini Shakti, awakened by the Guru’s grace, ascends to the sahasrara. A splendiferous center of luminosity found in the crown of the head, the sahasrara is where the inner spiritual journey culminates. There, one merges with Shiva and his divine power, Shakti. In this union one’s sense of being a separate individual dissolves. As Lalla says: “I have died while still alive”; and instead, “only the Supreme beyond all misery remains.”

This was Lalla’s experience and, for her, the true teaching.

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    As I reread Lalleshwari’s poem this morning, I was feeling hesitant and wanted to resonate with its sweet and potent truth. Then as I read Umakant’s introduction, my state began to change. Experiences that had profoundly shaped my life over the years came to life for me. The physical world around me paled. My inner world, where uncertainty had been troubling me, filled with golden light, with love that I realized was already present in my heart—a nectar-like sense of Self.

    California, United States

    Lalleshwari’s words, “by constant practice,“ invite me to persevere in my sadhana. I believe that, thanks to the Guru’s grace and my own efforts, I have had glimpses of the union of my soul with the universe that Lalleshwari describes.
     
    Lalla Ded’s wisdom fills my heart with courage. I think of her supporting my ascent to the sublime sahasrara.

    Rodez, France

    I am deeply grateful that my Guru’s grace has allowed me to taste the truth in Lalleshwari’s words. I can feel her invitation inspiring me to practice more wakefulness and to rest my awareness in the inner realms.

    New Jersey, United States

    I am so grateful for this wonderful vakh. As soon as I saw the title, "I Entered the Gate of the Sushumna," a bright light switched on in my heart. My discomfort with a personal situation I’d been concerned about dissolved.
     
    What a beautiful experience!

    Chennai, India

    Recently, I had an experience that was similar to the one Lalleshwari describes in her words, “The world of name and form merges into the void.” I became aware of a deep place of peace in my heart. I focused my attention there. It intensified and intensified until it became my experience that all concepts, rituals, thoughts, questions, emotions were as ethereal as foam floating on the top of the water. There was nothing to call this state—not bliss, maybe not even love. It was completely silent, and lasted for about three hours.
     
    As it faded away, I knew to not try to grasp it, but I did pray that it return someday. I know it is independent and totally free. It does as it will for its own play. And I thank the Guru for granting me the priviledge of those beautiful hours.

    Arkansas, United States

    Just before meditation this morning I was drawn deeply inward when I read Lalleshwari’s words, "I have died while still alive. What can the world do to me now!" What extraordinary truth and beauty in just a few lines! My heart feels full and my head is light, feeling the profound truth in these words swirling in my awareness. What a cherished morning this has become!

    Vancouver, Canada

    How beautiful, inviting, and generous is this invitation to journey and experience the divine bliss of Shiva within ourselves!

    California, United States

    Today I began meditation by reading Lalleshwari’s vakh. As I closed my eyes and remembered Lalla’s words, I became aware of energy spinning within the sushumna. I focused on that energy and felt streams of bliss flowing through my body. “Oh, how wonderful!”
     
    I feel so fortunate that many centuries after Lalla wrote her vakh, I have a Siddha Guru who has awakened Kundalini Shakti within me, and who continually guides me to nurture the awakened shakti through her teachings and the practices.

    Massachusetts, United States

    As I sat for meditation today, my mind was busier than usual. For a while, my attention was caught up in the whirl of thoughts about work, politics, and daily life. Then, I remembered reading these lines by Lalla. I was able to bring to mind a few specific words from her vakh, and as I focused my attention on these words, my state immediately shifted.
     
    I felt a spaciousness inside. My mind became quiet, almost still, even while it reverberated with words from the poem: sushumna, lake of nectar, sahasrara . My mind became fascinated with these words. And then I seemed to experience the state she describes in her poem, where thoughts and forms dissolve into the void.
     
    I am amazed and grateful that these centuries-old words of Lalla’s had the power to transmit both her ideas and her experience.

    California, United States